about me

These titles about me exist I as a person, but some needs improvement, some i admire in others and wanted to adopt to me

all in all perfect description of me in a beautiful purple!

25 ways to wear a scarf

Desiderata by Max Ehrmann

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember

 what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let not this blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams; it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Hmmm!

New version of rabbit and turtle story 

My Idol

eagerly waiting for DVD

parenting choices

Yesterday after dinner my daughter thanked her dad for being so generous and rinsing her dinner plate and put it in the dish washer, i was there sitting at the dinner table and listening their conversation, usually i engage and shower her with questions out of jealousy that she thanked him but never after all these years of washing her dishes.

surprisingly i did not engage, sitting silently finishing my dinner but my mind is not silent, i can feel the blood rushing to my brain and so much activity is going on there, and i am very conscious that there is a clash between my good and bad senses, bad diffidently wants to engage in rage and good is trying to teach me something here. i try so hard not to listen to my bad sense and good is keep telling me you are not your peers, you are not your mom or mother in law or grand mother so don't relate anything here and keep calm and i did remain calm. I finish my dinner went upstairs watching tennis and i can not believe i control my bad senses and they are defeated by my conscious effort and i witness that effort and there is so much peace in my brain and i started crying out of joy because i didn't hurt me, i didn't hurt my daughters feelings and didn't install false believes, she felt like thanking him and she did, this whole thing is between them and i have nothing to do or feel anything out of it, and i did came out of it without any feelings attached to it. that is out of box experience to me. it never happened before.

while i am watching tennis with peaceful joy, my good senses started telling me why i should let go of my old beliefs and opened three files in my brain ordering me to clear them and make place for positive stuff.

1st one is, My grandfather and I used to finish lunch and dinner quickly  before even my grandmother sit at the table, by the time she start hers, we used to get up and one day she had enough of it and confronted it to both of us. why can't we just wait for her! and it stuck with me, and after i started family i teach my family table manners and respecting others feelings as well. it didn't went well i demanded, fight, yell, and afraid i am going to end up like my grandma what not, so the scene at dinner table is always tense because i don't want to end up like grandma! to day it is clear that i am NOT my grandma and I am NOT going to end up like her. so file is closed.

2nd and 3rd beliefs are from my mom and mother in law, when ever i cook and their husbands said they liked it, it's a tense atmosphere and lots of word exchanges between spouses, and i stand there thinking and puzzled what did i do to cause this and now i got it, that they are digging their old beliefs and creating a new one for me, i have nothing to do with them, so clear those two files too. 

today I make two conscious choices 1st not to activate these files back again and 2nd choice is, not to create drama that is going to stuck as a belief for my kids. I make a choice to break this cycle and end it with me so my kids don't inherit it.

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out of box

Stepping out of comfort zone is exhilarating.

we does experience life in full terms on and off with or with out conscious effort, life is full of all these efforts.

sometimes you come to dead end or become so busy reaching to something and not noticing anything around you, or don't know how to experience certain moments and conclude it's not your thing and numb your spirit.

mostly your beliefs, your upbringing, fears, your childhood experiences, lack of consciousness, lack of clarity makes us settle with in our boundaries. 

As a child when people ask me what i wanted to be when i grow up, i have so many things to pursue but that's not what they want to hear, for me deep inside what ever i see i want to experience and feel the adventure, let that be rickshaw pulling or may that be fishing or rowing a boat, tending a garden, joining in non profit organization and the list is endless and that's why my soul is so restless when i settle for something and doing it over and over again while there is a globe full of things to experience and no one said not to experience it but I haven't decide it yet, that's all.

from pixar animation

i do have fears and time to time feel shy when i am in public to fulfill these dreams, and there are times when i concur those fears or demons and jump in to the experience anyway and came out rejuvenated and alive, that's awesome feeling.

don't know where but somebodies 

i am going to keep those events from now on and see how many times i am stepping out of the box year after year and  what fears i might concur while doing it.

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welcoming new year!!

picture taken in the universal studios, Orlando FL .... Dr. Seuss land

It's always important to keep things in perspective.

you didn't go to sleep hungry last night,

you didn't go to sleep outside,

you had a choice of what clothes to wear this morning,

you hardly broke a sweat today,

you didn't spend a minute in fear,

you have access to clean drinking water,

you have access to medical care, you have access to the Internet, you can read.

some might say you are incredibly wealthy, so remember to be grateful for all the things you do have.

- viahttp://www.marcandangel.com/

"Dear past, thank you for all the life lessons you have taught me. Dear future, I am ready now!"