Goal of yoga and meditation?

good book on subject of yoga

"it is a subjective way of eradicating the instinctive weakness of human being" who ever it may be in what ever average intellectual condition they are, change has to take place, transformation has to take place and yoga takes you there slowly years of practice".

                                 - From 'Enlighten up'! documentary

I am practicing yoga with out a teachers supervision, on and off for a while, and yoga gave me the privilege of excepting my self who i am, and embrace the fact of it. it's not as simple as in one sentence, but 10 years of inner search and practice. "accept your self" is age old philosophy, that's not invented yesterday or by me;), if it's already there, why it takes a long time for me to understand it, because i ignored it, i used to think the whole idea of yoga and meditation is "boring" and ancient. it started with a library book i bought years ago, and started practicing it. i started with curiosity, not at all as a seeker or spiritual point of view.

 i don't know then, but puzzle started forming, along side i am living with a yogi for about 14 years now. that's my husband. 

first 2 years he seems like, naive guy. i used to give advise but 
no response. 
next 2 years i used to ask him like"what is wrong with you? 
no response. 
next 2 years i started asking him "what's going on with ME"? no response.

next 2 years i started saying out loud "there is something wrong with me"! 
no response.

past 2 years i realized "how naive i am all these years"

 he said, he knows that, and he is glad to hear that from me.

NOW! after all these years!

where do people like him come from? how they survive among us? how can they live with us?

i strongly believe, secretly deep inside, that by birth or later,  a nerve in my brain sprained little, not much:), thus my attitude, so by doing meditation, gradually that sprain heal to familiar, not entirely, but progressing to the level of my yogi husband and daughter. Oh! yes! i am living with a yogini too. my advice to you is don't live with cool people, or prepare to spiritual path! they don't say anything bad about you, but makes you feel sooooo bad about yourself and eventually you end up sitting in meditation, knocking the higher power door, begging to open it, because you have questions to be answered, why? why me? why them?

why together? who am i -by the way?
(i am sharing a secret with you guys, Shhhhh! when you are panicking, higher power never answer you back) 

ok fine! don't answer me. i live for NOW! but tomorrow i demand for an answer, and 
the next day same thing repeats. 
that's what meditation! simple huh!
when you meditate you come to conclusion that
we are living in a manic world and the world view is nothing to do about how you feel towards your life. you don't have to be comparison or dependent, but just be
yourself! with compassion.
meditation takes you there! slowly, patiently, annoyingly, uncomfortably, obnoxiously, agonizingly, awkwardly, distressingly, disturbingly, excruciatingly, irritatingly, miserably, wretchedly.

After a while or after so many years you come to yourself.
that's the goal of yoga and meditation!!!!
some people climb the mountains, some walk, some do aerobics, some write, some dance, some laugh for no reason, some hug, some kiss, some do gardening, some shop, some do puja, some dedicate them self to service, on and on ....... and i practice yoga and meditation:) 
what ever we choose and what ever we do it suppose to calm our mind. so give a try! by the way there are no side effects, but smile is guaranteed :)



{text written by me}