words of wisdom

Mrs Jaya Row stimulates my intellectual curiosity in a Clear, crisp and awesome way, I am searching online for Bhagavad Gita translators who can put this knowledge in simple sentences and suddenly overwhelmed by loads of wisdom and I am so glad i found her!!







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35 things I know for sure

1. I have very high standards for me, sometimes i am too tired to meet those standards and i learned that it's OK if i don't meet them.

2. I like to cook, I personalize my dishes by trying and re trying it until i master them, too bad if it's not like your mom's or not like you expected because it is uniquely my style and mine alone.

3. when i look back I am in my kids life, every boo boo, every scared moment, every doubt, every enjoyment, every confusion, every tear and i am completely fulfilled being a mom

4. I am good at organizing my house and spend time and energy to do so and manage time very effectively.  

5. In 35 years i experience world class life, traveled, had material stuff around and there is nothing i am yearning at this moment humbled, fulfilled, Full of gratitude. 

6. sugar is enemy

7. i know how to wear sari elegantly and casuals for day and formals for hospital volunteer work and never missed complements from people for my polished look.

8. You can personalize everything make it uniquely yours...Faith, attire, laugh, compassion, traditions, life choices, hosting a dinner, friends etc, you don't have to follow anybody, you customize them for you and just be.

9.where you live is not important how you live is important ...country, city, metro, abroad, Yurt or penthouse it doesn't matter, your space is your heaven keep it clean and respect for what you have.

10.books are best friends.

11. being introvert is not crime, I don't have to be worry how extraverts think about me. i don't even differentiate any based on extra or intro.

12. your husband, kids, family members don't complete you, you complete yourself so focus on that not on them.

13. grow your own food and marvel on how a tiny seed produce abundance.

14. I forgive myself.

15. meditation is conversation with soul, so spend just 15 minutes with you everyday.

16. when i am living my life the way i can live, i notice people have expectations on me, i don't think i can fulfill their expectations because they are not mine.

17. crying is not shame it is as important as laughter.

18. there is no failing in life, it's just the indication of wrong turn, get back to the path and keep on moving, sometimes you must take that wrong turn to give somebody a lift and be a hero in their down time, so any way you see failing is as important as success.

19. I always do something new to improve my body, mind and spirit.

20. I almost get rid of my life worth of baggage of anger, emotional junk, well almost, not entirely.

21. i am a global citizen, my mind never differentiate the  interaction with varies cultures and nationalities, languages and accents i respect because we all one.
i have problems with attitudes not people.

22. Earth is filled with secrets what you see and experiencing on this earth is all a lie.

23.  All my life people perspective about me never matched what i know about me but now i love myself and learned excepting me.

24. be open minded, pyramids are not tombs and i don't think mighty Meenakshi temple build by humans and i firmly believe there is life out side of our home called earth.

25. i had a confused teenage years, i don't even know about it then that i am clueless, i thought i know all, when i look back now, thank god i survived with minor blemishes and hurray i made it and now i let it go!!! because it is no longer serve any good any way.

26. up to date with new tech, lifestyle, trends but don't over do it or drown in it because there is a delicate balance between new and old both are important.

27. since childhood i want to do a lot of things and i fulfilled most of them, people don't like my career choices but those are my curiosities and fully experienced it, once it is done i am free to move on to fulfill my next curiosity. i have luxury of choice.

28. music is divine.

29. I am always proud of the feeling that i was born the land of deep thinkers, philosophers and sages and probably walk on the same soil as they once did and just thinking of it always gives me goosebumps.

30. i have numerous talents and skills i used to deny that, don't know why but changed and started accepting it.

31. we tell a lot of stories our self's not all of them are right it's the mind playing games with us so pay attention to filter which story is right and which one is wrong.

32. My grandmother is the only one excepted me as i am with out judgement, when she passed away i let go of her gracefully because i spent a lot of time with her while she is on Earth with me, we laughed, cried, argued, yell, discussed with each other openly, genuinely and that never happened with any one in my life and i had a human being in my life that loved me unconditionally and i honor that, i firmly believe she is looking over me and guiding me.

33. just because you claim your parents as parents and siblings as siblings relative as relative that doesn't mean you know them very well, sometimes they are as much as the strangers on the street. all of us have "with- in", pure and sensible everybody is too afraid to show or explore that.

34. if people are in competition or comparison or opinionated about me or with me i take space or give space to think. time heals everything because i have no interest on competing or comparing nor opinion on that situation.

35. we are here to learn or teach so people come to your life to learn or teach and you go to their life to learn or teach. simple.




{written by me}





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Bowl of saki

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   It is more important to find out the truth about one's self, than to find out the truth of heaven and hell. 
many other things which are of less importance and are apart from oneself. However, every man's pursuit is according to his state of evolution, and so each soul is in pursuit of something but he does not know where it leads him. The first sign of realization is tolerance towards others.
     Bowl of Saki,  by Hazrat Inayat Khan


 

100 Hours of blessings and counting!

I volunteer at children's hospital in my adopted town.
it's purely because i wanted to!
i grew up in India when Mother Theressa is a big influence and role model to our generation, i never had a hot guy on my wall staring at me, but had her picture on my closet door always wondering how she can do such a sacrifice while i am whining for small stuff.
wanted to be a social worker or child development specialist, It didn't work out as i planned or didn't plan as i wanted what ever it is i didn't go to that path, but fire is there, so decided to volunteer. 



i pick up the phone one day and called the volunteer services and the coordinator ask why i wanted to volunteer? that's a good question i didn't prepare to answer so i said because i am willing and dreaming to do volunteer work, she said you have to commit 100 hours at least. 
i said no problem
she sent me questionnaires to know about me, background check, more interviews with child life department, training, orientations, more interviews and then the approval to do what i am dreaming for years.
 
friends ask me what's the worth, didn't i have anything to do with my leisure time? what is the use with this kind of work, what is the benefit of doing it, why you are wasting time and energy if it is not for any future use? what not? they said everything.
i smile and join anyway,
Because nothing you have passion for is ever a waste of time, no matter how it turns out. 

Children who are suffering with cancer, heart, neurological problems are going through trauma, staying in the hospital for a long time and desperately needs a companion or a person who can make their tiny wishes come true.


after 100 hours of volunteer work I gain more than what I can give! some nuggets what i gain from this experience,
  • I stopped underestimating my power of being as a human.
  • I appreciate my health and my family members health more than any thing.
  • smile is a healer.
  • kids notice you are genuine or not, and complement if they think you are awesome, when that happened to you that feeling is impossible to put it in words.
  • you start noticing life is not in black and white it comes in all shapes, colors, forms and you are glad you are in a safe place than others.
  • health IS wealth. 
  • nurses are angels.
  • not all doctors are passionate some are there because they choose wrong profession. you can feel it.
  • some doctors are gifted they cry when their patient is in pain and do ANYTHING for that kid.
  • you start shatter your childhood beliefs of social analysis of "you" and start creating new according to your own soul analysis.
  • I am Unique and my multi-talented persona is being used perfectly.
 am i going to stop after 100 hours? answer to thee, why would I stop when the work is making me feel so damn good and worthy about myself?




{written by me}

FLY

Rabbi Shergill




Bulla Ki Jaana Maen Kaun
 a kafi written by sufi saint Bulleh shah (1680 to 1758)

I know not who I am!
I know not who I am! 
Nor am I the believer in mosque
Nor am I in the rituals of the infidel
Nor am I the pure in the impure

Nor am I inherent in the Vedas
Nor am I present in intoxicants
Nor am I lost nor the corrupt
Nor am I union nor grief
Nor am I intrinsic in the pure/impure
Nor am I of the water nor of the land
Nor am I fire nor air

 Bulla! I know not what I am

Nor am I Arabic nor from Lahore 
Nor am I the Indian City of Nagaur
Nor a Hindu nor a Peshawri turk
Nor did I create the difference of faith
Nor did I create adam-eve
Nor did I name myself
Beginning or end I know just the self
Do not acknowledge duality
There’s none wiser than I

"Who is this Bulla Shah"
Bulla! I know not who I am
 Bulla! I know not who I am

Nor am I Moses nor Pharoah
 Nor am I fire nor wind
I do not stay in Nadaun (city of innocents)
Bullashah, who is this man standing?
Bulla! I know not who I am
Bulla! I know not who I am
 





Life affirmations!


You are in full control of your own happiness.
If your relationship with yourself isn't working
don't expect your other relationships to be any different.
Nobody else in this world can make you happy.
it's something you have to do on your own and you have to create your own happiness first before you can share it with someone else.
If you feel that it's your partners fault, think again and look within yourself to find out what piece is missing. your partner can never complete you, because you are already whole. the longing for completion that you feel inside comes from being out of touch with who you are.


When things fall apart, consider the possibility that life knocked it down on purpose.
not to bully you or to punish you but prompt you to build something that better suits your personality and your purpose. sometimes things fall apart so better things can fall together. 
via- http://www.marcandangel.com/


i don't any longer think that it is possible that other people can hurt me, they are just giving me their observation and i am giving it meaning, so i get to choose what that meaning is!......Iyanla











about me

These titles about me exist I as a person, but some needs improvement, some i admire in others and wanted to adopt to me
all in all perfect description of me in a beautiful purple!






25 ways to wear a scarf


Desiderata by Max Ehrmann


Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember
 what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let not this blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams; it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.




Hmmm!

New version of rabbit and turtle story 











My Idol

eagerly waiting for DVD


parenting choices



Yesterday after dinner my daughter thanked her dad for being so generous and rinsing her dinner plate and put it in the dish washer, i was there sitting at the dinner table and listening their conversation, usually i engage and shower her with questions out of jealousy that she thanked him but never after all these years of washing her dishes.

surprisingly i did not engage, sitting silently finishing my dinner but my mind is not silent, i can feel the blood rushing to my brain and so much activity is going on there, and i am very conscious that there is a clash between my good and bad senses, bad diffidently wants to engage in rage and good is trying to teach me something here. i try so hard not to listen to my bad sense and good is keep telling me you are not your peers, you are not your mom or mother in law or grand mother so don't relate anything here and keep calm and i did remain calm. I finish my dinner went upstairs watching tennis and i can not believe i control my bad senses and they are defeated by my conscious effort and i witness that effort and there is so much peace in my brain and i started crying out of joy because i didn't hurt me, i didn't hurt my daughters feelings and didn't install false believes, she felt like thanking him and she did, this whole thing is between them and i have nothing to do or feel anything out of it, and i did came out of it without any feelings attached to it. that is out of box experience to me. it never happened before.

while i am watching tennis with peaceful joy, my good senses started telling me why i should let go of my old beliefs and opened three files in my brain ordering me to clear them and make place for positive stuff.

1st one is, My grandfather and I used to finish lunch and dinner quickly  before even my grandmother sit at the table, by the time she start hers, we used to get up and one day she had enough of it and confronted it to both of us. why can't we just wait for her! and it stuck with me, and after i started family i teach my family table manners and respecting others feelings as well. it didn't went well i demanded, fight, yell, and afraid i am going to end up like my grandma what not, so the scene at dinner table is always tense because i don't want to end up like grandma! to day it is clear that i am NOT my grandma and I am NOT going to end up like her. so file is closed.

2nd and 3rd beliefs are from my mom and mother in law, when ever i cook and their husbands said they liked it, it's a tense atmosphere and lots of word exchanges between spouses, and i stand there thinking and puzzled what did i do to cause this and now i got it, that they are digging their old beliefs and creating a new one for me, i have nothing to do with them, so clear those two files too. 

today I make two conscious choices 1st not to activate these files back again and 2nd choice is, not to create drama that is going to stuck as a belief for my kids. I make a choice to break this cycle and end it with me so my kids don't inherit it.








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out of box

Stepping out of comfort zone is exhilarating.
we does experience life in full terms on and off with or with out conscious effort, life is full of all these efforts.
sometimes you come to dead end or become so busy reaching to something and not noticing anything around you, or don't know how to experience certain moments and conclude it's not your thing and numb your spirit.
mostly your beliefs, your upbringing, fears, your childhood experiences, lack of consciousness, lack of clarity makes us settle with in our boundaries. 

As a child when people ask me what i wanted to be when i grow up, i have so many things to pursue but that's not what they want to hear, for me deep inside what ever i see i want to experience and feel the adventure, let that be rickshaw pulling or may that be fishing or rowing a boat, tending a garden, joining in non profit organization and the list is endless and that's why my soul is so restless when i settle for something and doing it over and over again while there is a globe full of things to experience and no one said not to experience it but I haven't decide it yet, that's all.


from pixar animation

i do have fears and time to time feel shy when i am in public to fulfill these dreams, and there are times when i concur those fears or demons and jump in to the experience anyway and came out rejuvenated and alive, that's awesome feeling.


don't know where but somebodies 

i am going to keep those events from now on and see how many times i am stepping out of the box year after year and  what fears i might concur while doing it.



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welcoming new year!!


picture taken in the universal studios, Orlando FL .... Dr. Seuss land

It's always important to keep things in perspective.
you didn't go to sleep hungry last night,
you didn't go to sleep outside,
you had a choice of what clothes to wear this morning,
you hardly broke a sweat today,
you didn't spend a minute in fear,
you have access to clean drinking water,
you have access to medical care, you have access to the Internet, you can read.
some might say you are incredibly wealthy, so remember to be grateful for all the things you do have.






"Dear past, thank you for all the life lessons you have taught me. Dear future, I am ready now!"